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Toughness

So many days are taken for granted and with each passing minute that I reflect upon I tend to be regretful. What I want you know is that I love you. I may not say it enough but I hope that in your heart and mind you know I love you more than I able to express.

It is the summer of 2017 and by the end of the summer you will be eight. Time has gone by too fast and before I know it, you will be gone, off into the world. It scares me. It makes me nervous to think that I do not spend enough time with you. It makes be anxious to think that one day you will be off in the world.

My hopes is that you will flourish. I will be hard on you, I will push but in the end my love for you will never diminish.

Just recently we practiced softball. We set up the net in the backyard and I threw you soft toss. You struggled and I pushed you, I pushed you to the point where you were crying. I pushed you harder and you cried harder but you started to succeed. You pushed through the difficultly and through the tears and hit like you never had hit before. I hugged you, I kissed you on the forehead and told you how much I loved you. I told you how I am going to be tough on you. You smiled and said I love you daddy.

That moment was tough for me. I struggled through that more than you know. I hated to see you crying and unhappy. I hated to hated to have to push you harder when all I wanted to do was hold you. I love you kid. I am always going to want hold your hand and never let you be hurt, but I want to push you through your comfort zone because I know you are more than capable of taking on whatever life throws at you. Be tough, be you.

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